from my mattress on the floor.

So,

I'm chilling here in my room.

From the mattress on my floor. 

Since my bed is a litttttttle broken for the short time being.

That is until I drive to the store 

and buy some... thing.. to fix it.

But due to the excess snow 

and my lazy soul...

I just chill here. 
on the floor.

(notice the stack of books holding it up. Classy.)

Anywho,

here are a few Michelle thoughts for 

your casual Tuesday evening thinking.

Disclaimer... the following my sound a little "dark,"

perhaps, but it isn't meant to be delivered that way.

It is a handful of my reflective thoughts of the day...

Lately people have been telling me that I'm in a really good place,

when I express a large variety of confusion with life.

It's a little dumb-founding to me.

How am I in a "good place" that is "normal"

when I feel like I don't know anything I used to "know"?

Ever feel like that?

Like you had this handful of something

so precious, that moves you...

and then one day you look at it

and say, "What the BEEEEP??!"

You don't recognize it anymore.

It actually, perhaps, resembles dirt....

& maybe you want to throw it on

the ground and leave it behind.

But for some reason,

something in you won't

let you release your grip 

and turn your hands over.

Each day you come to that 

handful and look at it, 

unable to really name what it is.

It frustrates you.

Some days carrying it seems heavy,

other days you don't even

give it a look, 

because you are slightly
bothered with the continual cycle

of confusion.

hmmm... so how could all this
be a "good place," that someone would
almost congratulate me, to be in?

Ha. I realize some of you reading this
may be thinking I'm crazy. Or intense.
Not denying either...ha.
But in all seriousness,
I think I may not be
the only person that feels like this
every now and then?
Am I right? or am I right?


Oh these posts...
They make me feel like a young
teen narrating a Disney Channel
show from the 2000s...
"This is what dreams are made of?"
Anyone, anyone?


Well until I find further thoughts on my little existential confusion-ness....
I used my handy iPhone to capture my tea brewing in water last night.
If you ever feel kinda "blah" grab some form of herbal tea that
is colorful and watch it brew. It'll settle the brain for a little.
Throw it on full screen and take a watch.

P.S. Bed is now fixed. 

-Miche